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smokingboot) wrote2023-07-30 07:55 am
smokingboot) wrote2023-07-30 07:55 am
Happy Anniversary to Us
We've been together since June 1999, married since 2016. It's been cool!
Thoughts of seeing Oppenheimer tonight but it didn't seem quite appropriate really...maybe tomorrow.
The weather is so dreadful, I don't think we will be going out this evening. We're seeing friends during the day though, and a little Moet awaits.
All those years I never wanted matrimony, not as a child, not ever, saw my parents marriage and knew to stay right away from anything so ruinous and painful. I recall rolling my eyes at Monica Geller talking about how little girls plan and dream of their wedding day, as though it's some pinnacle of existence! And it's pushed so hard at women! When we were considering a Halloween wedding at the Horn of Plenty in Devon, the planner gushed at me saying this would be the most wonderful day of our lives; R chuckled as I replied, 'I hope not!' Because no; I wanted a book opening, not the top of a mountain from where the only way is down.
My sense was always that nothing puts more pressure on a connection than leaning on it and I still think there's sense to that. But sometimes the promise strengthens and sweetens. Can't promise tomorrow, but as a sequence of todays, I really can't complain.
And here I am with husband and hat and happiness, shocked to discover myself as a wife!
Thoughts of seeing Oppenheimer tonight but it didn't seem quite appropriate really...maybe tomorrow.
The weather is so dreadful, I don't think we will be going out this evening. We're seeing friends during the day though, and a little Moet awaits.
All those years I never wanted matrimony, not as a child, not ever, saw my parents marriage and knew to stay right away from anything so ruinous and painful. I recall rolling my eyes at Monica Geller talking about how little girls plan and dream of their wedding day, as though it's some pinnacle of existence! And it's pushed so hard at women! When we were considering a Halloween wedding at the Horn of Plenty in Devon, the planner gushed at me saying this would be the most wonderful day of our lives; R chuckled as I replied, 'I hope not!' Because no; I wanted a book opening, not the top of a mountain from where the only way is down.
My sense was always that nothing puts more pressure on a connection than leaning on it and I still think there's sense to that. But sometimes the promise strengthens and sweetens. Can't promise tomorrow, but as a sequence of todays, I really can't complain.
And here I am with husband and hat and happiness, shocked to discover myself as a wife!
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