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This morning is not proving easy, a couple of odd little symptoms/side effects troubling me. I don't know whether to phone the local BC team or not. Maybe not, I suspect I am being a bit fragile. I want this to be a take the pill and forget it thing. It isn't. But it has to be, it just has to be. One thing about either of those parties, they'd kick it out of my head for a couple of hours. The body can choose a haunting or a hangover but not both.
Going out to get some things, I grabbed my Dad's gift; he got me many but this is the one I still have, an old slightly shonky chevron ring. I put it on. For a moment it felt like he was holding my hand very firmly.And the first clean t-shirt I found (yup, behind on laundry like everything else) was an old one with a scrawled swan across it. Makes me laugh given my adventures with the local avian mobsters; a swan could never be a symbol for me with all that elegance and glamour but the reality is that they are damn tough and dad was too. And that's what I need to be, so here we go, ring and swan and idiot together; just for today, just for a couple of hours, it'll do me good. Boots on.
Going out to get some things, I grabbed my Dad's gift; he got me many but this is the one I still have, an old slightly shonky chevron ring. I put it on. For a moment it felt like he was holding my hand very firmly.And the first clean t-shirt I found (yup, behind on laundry like everything else) was an old one with a scrawled swan across it. Makes me laugh given my adventures with the local avian mobsters; a swan could never be a symbol for me with all that elegance and glamour but the reality is that they are damn tough and dad was too. And that's what I need to be, so here we go, ring and swan and idiot together; just for today, just for a couple of hours, it'll do me good. Boots on.
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Date: 2023-09-15 01:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-09-15 01:41 pm (UTC)I'm sorry you're feeling off today. Find whatever relief you need, sweets. HUGS
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Date: 2023-09-16 09:55 am (UTC)And thank you for saying such lovely things XX
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