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4 am again, epic levels of insomnia and exhaustion. I have no idea what's going on.

Pain's been a bit of an issue, what with the tendonitis etc. Went and got the prescription yesterday, because my normal pharmacy can't get the supplies in. Boots had it... But it was a 2 hour wait. Limping around town for that time was not great, things got pretty cold. Then I got the prescription which is for 28 days, but as I have to take two a day, that's a fortnight before I run out. Q this all over again.

BUPA hadn't got back, so I got onto them. Now I have the specialist, but I don't have the appointment because the phone is constantly engaged. None of it is terrible, it's just little nagging stuff that impacts more because of pain and fatigue. I'm in a great situation to be able to get past these things, to be afford the private care, to have a warm house and plenty of food. Still, I want to just shut my eyes and live in a hot bath for a month. We almost managed a weekend of it when we were in Silverdale, slowly parboiling in the hot tub.

And there, suddenly I can't write anymore. My eyes are closing, it's as though I can't think beyond 20 seconds into the future.

Later, later.