smokingboot

Dreams last night, full of tiny cute details but no real plot that I can recall; I lost a gold sandal but found another pair shining and pretty. Rooms full of friends, people having a good time, something about me taking a lot of photographs and turning them into gifs;and a couple of negative statements from me to me that resonate with how I have felt, not just over the last couple of years but over many years. A dream full of gold followed by waking in the sunshine. In this room the windows face full east. It's hard to write with the sun piercing through the blinds so forcefully, but now is a good time anyway. The specialist doesn't think the mole is anything to worry about, but they are going to perform a biopsy to be sure. From what I can gather, the perp is in until 2017 at the earliest though I am waiting for confirmation on that. Last night, my partner described me as "Old School Boot." That's true and not true - I am much closer to authentic me, the girl with the freckles and the stories, but a lot of stuff has been scraped off and I feel much better for it.

What do I want to do?

I want to write and really enjoy writing, not feel that I am just trying to get to the end of something.
I want to spend more time with my mother, and wander Granada, maybe even see more of Spain together.
My current objects of envy are the FB friend who has moved to the Arctic Circle, and the FB Friend who has done a tour of ancient sites in Turkey. This tells me that I want to explore, that I want wilderness and ancient land.

Having said that, home-life with