Ugh.

[smokingboot]

Depression.

Triggered by circumstances on this occasion, as opposed to random head circuitry going awry, nevertheless as one easily slides into the other, I need to stay aware of what is happening because I don't medicate.

It's exacerbated by lack of sunlight. My partner believes I suffer from Seasonal Adjustment Disorder. I have decided not to agree with him because PTSD and Depression are quite enough as syndrome collections go, I don't need some kind of mental issue hat trick. Nonetheless, sunshine always makes me feel better. Barring our palest friends, surely it makes everyone better?

Well, today is just a day, so I am going to have to invent the sunshine for myself. I respect my cleaner but I wish she would come and go, and leave me to settle into my imagining.

Comments

[conuly]

The plus side of SAD is that for many of us it can be treated with some combination of a light box (10,000 lumens, please, positioned above the head) and a sunrise simulator. No medicine needed, and it's not that expensive to just test it out without having to lug yourself in to the doctor.

[smokingboot]

Cheers Conuly, I may do just that. Don't know much about current treatment for SAD (heard long ago the lightboxes could intensify migraine headaches or something) so your info is really helpful, thanks!

[mallorys_camera]

I have moderate to severe SAD myself.

Not that I want to take away from the uniqueness of your SAD -- insert smiley emoticon -- but here's some stuff that works for me:

1. Vitamin D supplements
2. A lightbox
3. EXERCISE
4. The mantra: It's just brain chemistry. It's just brain chemistry.

[smokingboot]

Thumbs up and thanks for 1,2 and 4! But exercise? *Groans*