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Well, taking a sabbatical from the Charity and hating myself for needing to.
I do not care about grammar today.
Everything is a little bit difficult right now.
I appear to be writing a series of incomplete haikus.
OK, let's start again. Yesterday was terrible for a number of reasons. My work, my work, not just the damnable minutiae of formatting (never my strong point) but much more requiring delicacy, sense, focus inevitably shattered by our old tom just screeching his head off all damn day. No, he's not in pain, he just wants someone to sit with him in the front room, putting the fire on and petting him. Yes, he is as spoilt as hell. But the sounds he makes just feel like plates being smashed to the floor right beside me.
Fighting off tears and a headache, trying to keep going, then there's my mother texting me to complain about her phone, a situation I can do nothing to change, not least because I don't know if the noises she complains about are actual or if she is suffering from auditory hallucinations as in her serious dip last week.
There are a couple of other things that have upset me but I am not going to talk about them because they're trivial and it's pointless.
No work today, I need to stop wrestling with everything, with myself. Today I am getting my hair done, getting my nails done, beginning the return to some form of self-care. We have a chum to meet tonight, but maybe I won't do it, it's an old colleague of R's and I wonder if I would just be better sitting indoors finishing off Archive 81, which at the moment is doing all the Lovecraft stuff just right. I fear it ending in similar strange disintegration to Lovecraft Country, but for now, it's perfect. Also, for many many reasons, it pairs perfectly with The Apprentice.
It's been brilliant having mates to stay. The last weekend but one became a glorious D&D fest of 3 days just sitting there rolling dice and pretending to be magical beings. We might as well all have been twelve again. Last night we played in another world with other friends via Zoom. People are fun, I should go tonight. But oh, I need sleep so badly!
Well, taking a sabbatical from the Charity and hating myself for needing to.
I do not care about grammar today.
Everything is a little bit difficult right now.
I appear to be writing a series of incomplete haikus.
OK, let's start again. Yesterday was terrible for a number of reasons. My work, my work, not just the damnable minutiae of formatting (never my strong point) but much more requiring delicacy, sense, focus inevitably shattered by our old tom just screeching his head off all damn day. No, he's not in pain, he just wants someone to sit with him in the front room, putting the fire on and petting him. Yes, he is as spoilt as hell. But the sounds he makes just feel like plates being smashed to the floor right beside me.
Fighting off tears and a headache, trying to keep going, then there's my mother texting me to complain about her phone, a situation I can do nothing to change, not least because I don't know if the noises she complains about are actual or if she is suffering from auditory hallucinations as in her serious dip last week.
There are a couple of other things that have upset me but I am not going to talk about them because they're trivial and it's pointless.
No work today, I need to stop wrestling with everything, with myself. Today I am getting my hair done, getting my nails done, beginning the return to some form of self-care. We have a chum to meet tonight, but maybe I won't do it, it's an old colleague of R's and I wonder if I would just be better sitting indoors finishing off Archive 81, which at the moment is doing all the Lovecraft stuff just right. I fear it ending in similar strange disintegration to Lovecraft Country, but for now, it's perfect. Also, for many many reasons, it pairs perfectly with The Apprentice.
It's been brilliant having mates to stay. The last weekend but one became a glorious D&D fest of 3 days just sitting there rolling dice and pretending to be magical beings. We might as well all have been twelve again. Last night we played in another world with other friends via Zoom. People are fun, I should go tonight. But oh, I need sleep so badly!
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