Moments and Plans
Mar. 24th, 2026 09:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
smokingbootWell gosh. That got difficult.
Watching Landman which we've been thoroughly enjoying. And then in season 2 something happens which immediately caused a problem.
There's a depiction of SA and the blocking of the scene drove me straight into a PTSD moment. That was all the similarity, just the positioning and movements of the actors, but still intensely distressing, and reminded me of the oddities of my own experience. The first peculiarity I recalled was that despite being a lifelong burglar, the perp had never attempted a sexual crime before, and the attempt could have been down to being off his head on drugs; but had he not been in that mess, had he been fit and well fed, I might not have been able to fight him off. A huge factor driving him to his crime prevented him from fulfilling it. The other was the presence of the knife he held. As I went straight for it, his attempts to straddle me and pin me down were hampered because he couldn't use both hands. The thing that was most dangerous about the situation helped me get out of it.
There's probably some useful lessons in there somewhere.
Maybe I wouldn't have been as easily shaken had I not been in this odd not-quite-hypnogogic state recently. However, this is the second PTSD experience I have had this year, so I need to be careful. It is better, almost healed, but I mustn't push it.
Anyway, leaving that aside, Landman is fun, so much fun it wouldn't surprise me if it contributes towards R's interest in visiting Texas. I know he's up for Austin, but he wants lots of live music while I'm a bit more interested in the amazing book festival mentioned bymallorys_camera. Places of interest include Austin, San Antonio, Amarillo and surrounds, Palo Duro or maybe even Big Bend with the Rio Grande. I almost want to see Marfa, but if the lights don't turn up I can't imagine it would interest R at all. I don't think he's seen a James Dean film in his life.
Anyway, maybe now is not the best time for that plan. Let's see how the world and the West settles.
Watching Landman which we've been thoroughly enjoying. And then in season 2 something happens which immediately caused a problem.
There's a depiction of SA and the blocking of the scene drove me straight into a PTSD moment. That was all the similarity, just the positioning and movements of the actors, but still intensely distressing, and reminded me of the oddities of my own experience. The first peculiarity I recalled was that despite being a lifelong burglar, the perp had never attempted a sexual crime before, and the attempt could have been down to being off his head on drugs; but had he not been in that mess, had he been fit and well fed, I might not have been able to fight him off. A huge factor driving him to his crime prevented him from fulfilling it. The other was the presence of the knife he held. As I went straight for it, his attempts to straddle me and pin me down were hampered because he couldn't use both hands. The thing that was most dangerous about the situation helped me get out of it.
There's probably some useful lessons in there somewhere.
Maybe I wouldn't have been as easily shaken had I not been in this odd not-quite-hypnogogic state recently. However, this is the second PTSD experience I have had this year, so I need to be careful. It is better, almost healed, but I mustn't push it.
Anyway, leaving that aside, Landman is fun, so much fun it wouldn't surprise me if it contributes towards R's interest in visiting Texas. I know he's up for Austin, but he wants lots of live music while I'm a bit more interested in the amazing book festival mentioned by
mallorys_camera. Places of interest include Austin, San Antonio, Amarillo and surrounds, Palo Duro or maybe even Big Bend with the Rio Grande. I almost want to see Marfa, but if the lights don't turn up I can't imagine it would interest R at all. I don't think he's seen a James Dean film in his life.Anyway, maybe now is not the best time for that plan. Let's see how the world and the West settles.
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Date: 2026-03-24 11:39 am (UTC)I've never been to Texas. It's VAST!