Miserable and angry
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smokingbootSo I will put this under a cut to spare everyone else.
I am feeling pretty down at the moment; maybe it's the period, maybe it's the synopsis, definitely it's the hunt for a new job, but right now it manifests in one four-footed embodiment of unhappiness; Chav-cat.
It was pouring with rain yesterday. He came in and we closed the window. Lots of food and water was put down for him, Ralik remained totally unconcerned and Surya bitch-slapped him if he spent too long in her territory, the conservatory. He ran upstairs and hid under the bed in the green room, and there he stayed. He was terrified of us. We left him to see if he would calm down, and he did for a while. Then late at night, his distress grew too great, solarians let him go out.
I think Chav-cat's feral. He did what most ferals do, ie, contrary to rep, they cry and try to run away, rather than hiss and fight. We leave the shed door open now, and there is a wee box with cushion in there, plus some food for him, but I am worried, because there are foxes around, and the food in the shed will attract them as well. Today it is raining again, and I am leaving the kitchen window open so he can come in and out, play with the kitties and nick a bit of food. His terror of humans is so pathetic. He doesn't bully the kitties, if anything it's the reverse.
I am angry and unhappy. Chav-cat is young and healthy right now, but the life of a feral cat is approximated at around 2 years. And I wonder how this happened. The best-case scenario is that somehow he got out before he was neutered, got lost and never went home. But where was his collar?
Or, aslarians thinks, he stopped being a cute kittie and was dumped, and that makes me so angry I dare not express my feelings on the matter, even here. Or he was born in a dumpster somewhere and has been living wild ever since. Maybe he has been vaccinated, but I doubt it; so what are the chances of feline HIV or leukemia catching up with him? And catching up with all the unvaccinated cats he bumps into? He will, of course, have the ordinary gamut of worms and ailments that the uncared for carry, so maybe something less spectacular will kill him, all because someone didn't care enough in the right way at the right time. Now, with his scarred face and his fear of human beings, there may never be a right time, because no-one is ever going to want him, and he is never going to want anybody.
But of course, he doesn't need to be linked to a human to be happy. Two years is just an estimate; life is good and summer is sweet, and if there's food enough and friendly cats to play with, there's no reason why Chav can't be happy. That's the point after all.
And with that, I pull myself up out of this funk and get to work.
I am feeling pretty down at the moment; maybe it's the period, maybe it's the synopsis, definitely it's the hunt for a new job, but right now it manifests in one four-footed embodiment of unhappiness; Chav-cat.
It was pouring with rain yesterday. He came in and we closed the window. Lots of food and water was put down for him, Ralik remained totally unconcerned and Surya bitch-slapped him if he spent too long in her territory, the conservatory. He ran upstairs and hid under the bed in the green room, and there he stayed. He was terrified of us. We left him to see if he would calm down, and he did for a while. Then late at night, his distress grew too great, so
larians let him go out. I think Chav-cat's feral. He did what most ferals do, ie, contrary to rep, they cry and try to run away, rather than hiss and fight. We leave the shed door open now, and there is a wee box with cushion in there, plus some food for him, but I am worried, because there are foxes around, and the food in the shed will attract them as well. Today it is raining again, and I am leaving the kitchen window open so he can come in and out, play with the kitties and nick a bit of food. His terror of humans is so pathetic. He doesn't bully the kitties, if anything it's the reverse.
I am angry and unhappy. Chav-cat is young and healthy right now, but the life of a feral cat is approximated at around 2 years. And I wonder how this happened. The best-case scenario is that somehow he got out before he was neutered, got lost and never went home. But where was his collar?
Or, as
larians thinks, he stopped being a cute kittie and was dumped, and that makes me so angry I dare not express my feelings on the matter, even here. Or he was born in a dumpster somewhere and has been living wild ever since. Maybe he has been vaccinated, but I doubt it; so what are the chances of feline HIV or leukemia catching up with him? And catching up with all the unvaccinated cats he bumps into? He will, of course, have the ordinary gamut of worms and ailments that the uncared for carry, so maybe something less spectacular will kill him, all because someone didn't care enough in the right way at the right time. Now, with his scarred face and his fear of human beings, there may never be a right time, because no-one is ever going to want him, and he is never going to want anybody. But of course, he doesn't need to be linked to a human to be happy. Two years is just an estimate; life is good and summer is sweet, and if there's food enough and friendly cats to play with, there's no reason why Chav can't be happy. That's the point after all.
And with that, I pull myself up out of this funk and get to work.
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Never doesn't happen
Date: 2005-06-14 11:44 am (UTC)This is a good thing.
(hugs)
Re: Never doesn't happen
Date: 2005-06-15 09:09 am (UTC)Thank you for cheering me up:-)
Re: Never doesn't happen
Date: 2005-06-15 10:13 am (UTC)Every time you look in a mirror reminds you you're a good thing.