Fury *Triggers here, be careful*
Apr. 26th, 2014 07:46 pmIt has been a long time since I felt this boiling fury. I didn't even think I had it in me any more. I must try to think try to recall how to put this behind a cut.
Ick. That's a pun though I didn't mean it to be.
So my friend 'invited' me - by which I mean made me a member without asking - to this artists appreciation of pornographic art group, and most of it's boring and some of it is beautiful/surprising/whatever.
So what has just appeared on my feed? What did I get a notification of in my email? ( Possible trigger, beware... )
I wrote that I didn't like it.
The original poster wrote; Are you sure?
He has since taken it down, because, to put it mildly, I reassured him that yes, oh yes, I was sure. Sure is what I was, more than sure. One of the many words that could be used to describe my state of mind was 'sure'. I was not nice; I haven't been this not nice in decades. He told me not to be rude...and my reply was, shall we say, emphatic. Just a tad. He removed the image. Quickly. If anyone in the group tries to give me shit, they will find that I am just as sure, emphatic and not nice with them. Jesus.
But no PTSD - my head whirled a bit but I was too furious for it to take hold. The image would have been disturbing for anyone who wasn't a misogynist into violent rape wank...but I'm actually OK. Hello Anger, my old friend...
Ick. That's a pun though I didn't mean it to be.
So my friend 'invited' me - by which I mean made me a member without asking - to this artists appreciation of pornographic art group, and most of it's boring and some of it is beautiful/surprising/whatever.
So what has just appeared on my feed? What did I get a notification of in my email? ( Possible trigger, beware... )
I wrote that I didn't like it.
The original poster wrote; Are you sure?
He has since taken it down, because, to put it mildly, I reassured him that yes, oh yes, I was sure. Sure is what I was, more than sure. One of the many words that could be used to describe my state of mind was 'sure'. I was not nice; I haven't been this not nice in decades. He told me not to be rude...and my reply was, shall we say, emphatic. Just a tad. He removed the image. Quickly. If anyone in the group tries to give me shit, they will find that I am just as sure, emphatic and not nice with them. Jesus.
But no PTSD - my head whirled a bit but I was too furious for it to take hold. The image would have been disturbing for anyone who wasn't a misogynist into violent rape wank...but I'm actually OK. Hello Anger, my old friend...