Talk about trying too hard

I've looked at a few of these journal settings: Sunsets! Rainbows! Oranges and pinks and brilliance and, and, and...

Blimey. The rainbow's pretty, that'll do.

I feel good about yesterday and terrible about everything else. I have to get out of this, a lot of work to be done, but focus is difficult. More than difficult.

I think this is a kind of in/out shock moment. No denying, I feel sad. But my thoughts don't focus on the argument. I am just drifting, and this is especially weird as I couldn't get to sleep last night thinking of material for the new work. So I wake today, too tired to work. Go figure.

This will improve because everything does.