Lento

A question on a friends FB page; what's your way of saying but not saying you're ill?

Mine has become I'm sorry I can't do it. I'm just too tired.

I am impossibly tired.

Went to the meeting last night. Then came back and played the game with the others. Slept well. Still exhausted beyond measure.

I guess this is not helped by my sense of work that may be neither improving, nor bringing about improvement. But that could be fatigue talking.

Maybe I should take another test, but I have no symptoms apart from this exhaustion.

Last night had its moment; I crossed through the little area of water and woodland to get into town, at twilight, marvelling at how lovely it all was, only to spot a man walking alone behind me. I began walking fast, by the time I reached town he had nearly caught up. Probably nothing, but...

I hate that I can't enjoy a twilight walk through the woods. I hate the fact that my husband and my mother are right not to want me to wander the hills alone.

God, I am going to have to get out of this mood sharpish! Stuff to do today...

Gutted but not ruined

Vietnam and Cambodia holiday over Xmas and the New Year has just been cancelled by the company.

This wasn't as much of a surprise as it might have been. I was keeping an eye on each country's Covid requirements for travel; can't fly into Vietnam, can't get across the border into Cambodia. It's been like that for months.

Good things about this:

No point going if loads of attractions are unavailable. I don't want to travel more than half way around the world to reach Angkor Wat and find it shut.

Our old tom cat is getting more doddery by the day. I am not sure we have much longer with him. I know you can't build your world around expectations of doom, but it feels right to have this Christmas together just in case.

My mother won't go crazier.

Bad things:

I don't know how likely R is to get that much time off again in the near future.

I WANTED TO GO! *Stamps widdle foot*

There now. I'm fine.

And really truly, I think this is going to be a lovely Christmas one way or another.