After this, that...

Discussing Mum with bro. Due to her problems with her new phone and lack of power (she insists on living without electricity) it is very hard to stay in touch with her. He wants to go live in Spain for 3 months and work from there, and is angling hard that I should do the same. I think the idea is that we take alternate stints out there.

Six months a year away from home would surely have major ramifications on my life and marriage; that's not an issue for Bro, most of whose relationships end up in the Bermuda Triangle anyway. But now there is the added issue of Covid. She will not vaccinate, so it's not just about getting through airports and isolating, then going to see her. I guess we would need to take tests every day, and even that doesn't mean we won't contact some variant of it just wandering through the streets on the way to her house. Though she would love to see us, she now believes we are permanently infected. She will be afraid of us being in her space.

R thinks it is just bro trying to tell me what to do, and to some extent I see that. But Bro is also right. We need to be around for her. Ugh, I don't know how to square this circle.