Self heal and sunshine

I like researching what I like to research. Right now I am looking at stuff that I find tedious and difficult, I am irritated by a couple of small nothings that shouldn't get to me, and the result is that I am snappy and not quite myself, not where I wanted to be after Crete.

None of this is helped by R coming home ill again. In the space of 5 weeks we have had 3 colds between us, and that's with a fortnight's dose of Aegean sunshine intervening. I don't know what is going on. Of course, R is travelling every couple of weeks between England and Scotland, not exactly the most healthy environment, and my cold came on right after spending a long time in an airport that grew colder into the night. Me and my flappy little summer dress had no chance!

But still, I'm wondering what's lacking in our diet, what we can do to improve this. There are very few issues about living in Scotland, it's a kind place full of kind people, and it has immense beauty, heart, history. But there's no getting away from the fact that we have faced multiple health issues since we moved here, and I wonder if the lower temperature, damp, and lack of sunshine has anything to do with it. It could of course just be the aftermath of Covid, immune systems that haven't been out and about enough, is it possible that some of it is age related?

I confess that my first thought is 'let's move to the Med.' Yes, yes, I know! It's not as easy as it was thanks to Brexity half-wits and anyway nowhere is perfect, no-one lives forever in the holiday vibe, though I'm indignant at fate not giving me the chance to try. I enjoyed Crete but we were ready to come home when we did because there are delights here. Yet I sit now, exhausted, hearing my husband cough upstairs, it's the first of July the heating is on and I'm just overwhelmed with fatigue. Again. Why are we always so tired?

So, to the refreshment of spirit a garden brings. The UK is a land of manicured lawns. Through the summer months I try to leave ours alone so that bees can find lots of food; the result includes spotted orchids, white clover, daisies and buttercups, self heal.





Self heal. How to heal the self? My solution's always to leave. I'm like a cat; if I feel uncomfortable in one place, I go to another place, if that doesn't work, I try another and then another. It takes a while for me to accept I may be carrying the problem with me. Having said that, I never had a problem in my life that wasn't helped even a tiny bit by sunshine.