A little misery

[smokingboot]

Ralik our little boy cat has gone.

It's day 11. New area, I think he just went out to have a reccy...hasn't come back. He's collared, microchipped, and now famous in the area as I have canvassed, put flyers on trees and lamp-posts and through doors, contacted the council, the local vets, the local charities...unfortunately the world is full of black cats with silver collars (local Tescos sells them), and one in particular keeps being identified as our hero. That cat is beginning to fear me. Every time it rests in a local garden, I magically appear and disturb it with my desperate coaxings. I keep hoping it will turn out to be him, and indeed it could be his twin...but it doesn't know me, and the collar is different. larians is being strong as ever, but our feelings can well be imagined. Any catpeople out there, please send your thoughts Ralik's way, cos we love him.

Things have been a bit tough recent. The move was intense of course, and then came Maelstrom, at which I couldn't stay due to a meeting which then got postponed.

I am having issues, definitely with Maelstrom and perhaps with all LARP. One should never feel one has to be 'braced' for an event. There should be room to relax. There isn't because everything aimed at the group from out of the white tent has a clumsy, badly executed WTF element to it. It's like working on a brief from the Knights Who Say Ni. I think it is all right for things to seem incomprehensible if you know there is reasoning behind it, but this keeps being a reassurance without proof. I need to know that things make sense, I need consistent worlds/politics/mythologies to keep my suspension of disbelief going...or else I get going. I have great affection for those who own this game, I recall its fantastic beginnings and want it to do well. But the system relies very heavily on one's trust that it is being run consistently, despite all evidence to the contrary, and my trust runs out/has run out. As a player, I need the world to make sense to me. Not all of it, but the basic tenets of it. Or I'll get back to the real world which is actually more fun, more rewarding and less muddy.


Or perhaps I am just very tired and disheartened. The move, a little exzema, the cat, the naff event, work and of course, the issue I mentioned to a few of you a few posts back, everything has just got on top of me. I can't focus and I really need to.

So, after this miserable post I start again.

Comments

[sack-boy.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you my dear *hugs back*

[littlemiscowboy.livejournal.com]

Oh hun - I hope Ralik turns up :-(

[thru-her-lens.livejournal.com]

Hoping Ralik returns to you soon!

[squintywitch.livejournal.com]

We send all catwishes Ralik's way. Snowy regularly goes awol and comes back, so fingers crossed.

[caffeine-fairy.livejournal.com]

Oh hon, I'm so sorry. I shall keep my fingers crossed that he mysteriously reappears...sometimes they do.

[evilwillow.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I know what you mean, ever since Russ told me last week I've been seeing Ralik all over the place, I saw his twin in my garden yesterday.

I really hope he comes back soon.

[ellefurtle.livejournal.com]

That's horrible, I hope he's ok.

By the way - meet up for a glass of wine somewhere sometime?

[mitchy.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie! *hugs* Sending "come back home safely" vibes from me and Rob the Furball.

[jadeent.livejournal.com]

Big hugs for you and Ralik. I hope he finds his way home soon.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you both:-) I am sure Rob must be very happy to have you back safe and sound. Cuddle your furball long and well from me xxx

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Me too my dear. Thank you for your kind wishes. Much lovexxx

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

I would love that, shall we make it for November? This month is turning into a right mare...

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you from my heart, loving fairy catmother xxx

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you for those crossed fingers dear fairy. I too hope for a mysterious reappearance.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Cheers Squinty! He hasn't done this since he was about 1, and even then, it was never this long. But hey, cats do this so as you say, fingers crossed xxx

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you my dear, you are very kind indeed.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your loving wishes, hope to catch up in a happier time - love to you, Mistah Bruce and Mastah Garret x

[november-girl.livejournal.com]

Hopefully Ralik's been stuck with some old lady who is torturing him with too many cuddles and overfeeding him with yummy stuff and he'll be back soon.

I got your voicemail yesterday - sorry I couldn't return the call at the time (I was at a wake when I picked it up, so it wouldn't have been appropriate) but yes, all okay on that, happy to help. Will try to call you later if I can get my head together today - yesterday was very emotional on a number of levels, and it's left me a bit hurty and very fuzzy. Nothing that won't pass, but no point me trying to be all together and sensible while it's here.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you for all this...I am sorry that you are going through so much, and re the voice mail, nothing there that won't keep.

My condolences and deepest respects to you. If there is anything I can do, let me know.

with love

Debbie

[the-pale-queen.livejournal.com]

I hope Ralik is finding his way back to you - any chance he could be chasing a lady cat?

On the Maelstrom front - it's been a bit bruising for all of us, I think. I hope we can work it all out. I hope we get to see you soon, at any rate.

*hugs from the North*

[blackcurrants.livejournal.com]

Oh! It must be horrendous. I don't know much about cats, but I do hear they come back in the strangest circumstances, after the longest periods of time. Here's hoping Ralik is on his way back to you right now.

[ravenrigan.livejournal.com]

When mine have gone they tend to reappear JUST as you have let go of the belief that they will come back. Bast guide him home.

Sorry to hear about Strom.

Curious what about the world not making sense? Have you discussed it with PD, or is it something not in their control?

[cyanidemigraine.livejournal.com]

*smile* i get a wish on my birthday, right? guess ive just decided what to use it on


good excuse for a cake too,

hang in there,even if the wish doesnt work, gone does not mean suffering or not with us anymore, necesarily, if that is any comfort, the old granny keeping him locked up in her kitchen of delights is not beyond possibility as someone has said before,

must be very hard for you all round, you and russ, give him a huge hug and kiss from me and we shall have to find an excuse and a time to meet up.

Ladycats

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Mr Ralik is a done gentleman, so I would expect his interest in the fair sex to be platonic. He is part demon though, so you never know...

Thank you for your kind wishes. Re Maelstrom, I feel for Russ who, on top of total fatigue and giving it the best he could (love to have seen anyone do better under the appalling circumstances) had to put up with a massive sh*tstorm courtesy of the Knights who say Ni deciding that they want a haddock, no,no, a shrubbery - again! Russ hasn't complained at all but he's a much better sport than I am. The group can sort it out, cos it's a good group, but I think it may well be time for me to withdraw. I'll know after the winter event, where I look forward to seeing you and everyone *hugs back*