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smokingbootPretty! White! Deep! Thick!
I'm not going anywhere near it.
Indoors I stay, where my admiration for the winter beauty of hills and trees can remain untouched by the reality of being stark bollock freezing. I'm supposed to be going belly dancing tonight. Am I really such a fool?
Strange dreams last night.
A repeat dream from the night before. Dream number 1: a small toddler boy ran past me. I barely saw him, but I knew something bad happened to him and felt sick. Dream number 2: Last night same boy ran straight into me. I picked him up. He was very small, two at the most. I checked him out to see if he was properly clothed, cos the snow had come just as the snow is here now. Especially I checked to see if he had proper shoes on his feet for the weather. He was well clothed and shod, and I put him somewhere safe, but somehow he led me to a place where four coffins lay. I did not look inside them.
Next, I was at a college, doing a test I knew nothing about. I had specifically 18 minutes to finish it. I hadn't boned up, worse, the questions were all maths, not hard sums, but certainly beyond my capacity to calculate. I answered only one, and that one wrongly. I felt defensive, because this was not my subject at all, and spoke to the tutor. We just talked about nothing and relaxed. On my college room wall was a collage of photos about me. The same cut out kept turning up again and again: A gesticulating skinny me in a long skirt with short hair and a pointy chin. There were about four repeats of this image.
I think I'm anxious about something. Obviously not too anxious, as I don't know what it is!
So what other thoughts cross my mind in all this white weather? There is the story, of course, so clearly a winter's tale. BB thinks I should expand upon it. I like it, but I don't know. Certainly,I shan't give up on it yet. Today is a thinking day, maybe even a writing day. I think I'm going to enjoy it.
I'm not going anywhere near it.
Indoors I stay, where my admiration for the winter beauty of hills and trees can remain untouched by the reality of being stark bollock freezing. I'm supposed to be going belly dancing tonight. Am I really such a fool?
Strange dreams last night.
A repeat dream from the night before. Dream number 1: a small toddler boy ran past me. I barely saw him, but I knew something bad happened to him and felt sick. Dream number 2: Last night same boy ran straight into me. I picked him up. He was very small, two at the most. I checked him out to see if he was properly clothed, cos the snow had come just as the snow is here now. Especially I checked to see if he had proper shoes on his feet for the weather. He was well clothed and shod, and I put him somewhere safe, but somehow he led me to a place where four coffins lay. I did not look inside them.
Next, I was at a college, doing a test I knew nothing about. I had specifically 18 minutes to finish it. I hadn't boned up, worse, the questions were all maths, not hard sums, but certainly beyond my capacity to calculate. I answered only one, and that one wrongly. I felt defensive, because this was not my subject at all, and spoke to the tutor. We just talked about nothing and relaxed. On my college room wall was a collage of photos about me. The same cut out kept turning up again and again: A gesticulating skinny me in a long skirt with short hair and a pointy chin. There were about four repeats of this image.
I think I'm anxious about something. Obviously not too anxious, as I don't know what it is!
So what other thoughts cross my mind in all this white weather? There is the story, of course, so clearly a winter's tale. BB thinks I should expand upon it. I like it, but I don't know. Certainly,I shan't give up on it yet. Today is a thinking day, maybe even a writing day. I think I'm going to enjoy it.
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Date: 2004-01-28 02:11 am (UTC)Wends
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