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smokingbootSo now a friend is going to start a porn hub. He has 3 'models' on his books and 2 incidents filmed and ready to go... This isn't a judgement on porn or the sex industry particularly. But he does seem to be flailing around between cosmic revelations and 'commandments' to do things he wants to do anyway, stone tablets unnecessary.
Porn neither worries nor shocks me, it just doesn't interest me per se, and it can be very exploitative. I am not even sure I see the business sense behind it. The internet is full of free porn, why would anyone subscribe to his channel? Are drugs involved? Is he aware of the ages of his models? Is he aware of their health? How does he avoid a situation where a person who looks 20, turns out to be 15, is pumped full of something very illegal to keep them going and suddenly discovers they are HIV positive? Not exactly unheard of. And now that I have written this horrible scenario here in the glare of screen and print, I will find it easier to express to him.
My earlier attempts to talk to him about his tumbling descent down the loon tree got nowhere fast. He accused me of not supporting him, backtracked on things he said earlier (things like 'there was a bit of fakery)' and became defensive very quickly. First there was the new channel on crop circles, where his habit of just wandering out with a camera and instantly catching 'orbs' was derided by certain sharp croppies. He was challenged and called out for subscription hunting. Now it's shapes in the sky, clouds lit by UFOs hiding behind them. It seems that every time he points a camera above grass level a light is flashing somewhere. One of them was giant and red for sure, so maybe the laugh's on me, maybe... He gives neither dates nor times nor whereabouts, he seems to not think about whether it's a plane or a car on a far away road, what he does do is add graphics and music, repetitive pop/rave stuff and its all very club scene, and none of it is research. Then came the 21st and revelations of the 5th dimension. Then came his commandments of Acceptance. And now his plans for a new porn channel.
And honestly, I don't know what to say. Don't want to harsh his buzz, get that it has been hard. But I also know he lies.
He doesn't talk about nearly dying and career collapsing, that person doesn't exist, changes his name, gets out of town and pop! All the past gone! And perhaps this is where the UFOs and the conjunction and the 5th dimension come in, this need to be rescued, for the brightest day to arrive and the hurt to end, for everything to be perfect and huge and magical. I understand that very well.
And anyway, if it hurts, why bring it up? He thinks I am not supporting him, and he may have a point. Here I am ticking off the things that trouble me, there has got to be a more constructive approach. I may be wrong, it would be much better if I was. He gets cross because I'm not feeling the music, not supporting his search for an ecstatic place of being. Where's that happy hedonism, that joy in the moment? Why am I so baldly unconvinced by any of it?
Is it age? Wisdom confused with cynicism? The rise of Marley's Ghost?
Porn neither worries nor shocks me, it just doesn't interest me per se, and it can be very exploitative. I am not even sure I see the business sense behind it. The internet is full of free porn, why would anyone subscribe to his channel? Are drugs involved? Is he aware of the ages of his models? Is he aware of their health? How does he avoid a situation where a person who looks 20, turns out to be 15, is pumped full of something very illegal to keep them going and suddenly discovers they are HIV positive? Not exactly unheard of. And now that I have written this horrible scenario here in the glare of screen and print, I will find it easier to express to him.
My earlier attempts to talk to him about his tumbling descent down the loon tree got nowhere fast. He accused me of not supporting him, backtracked on things he said earlier (things like 'there was a bit of fakery)' and became defensive very quickly. First there was the new channel on crop circles, where his habit of just wandering out with a camera and instantly catching 'orbs' was derided by certain sharp croppies. He was challenged and called out for subscription hunting. Now it's shapes in the sky, clouds lit by UFOs hiding behind them. It seems that every time he points a camera above grass level a light is flashing somewhere. One of them was giant and red for sure, so maybe the laugh's on me, maybe... He gives neither dates nor times nor whereabouts, he seems to not think about whether it's a plane or a car on a far away road, what he does do is add graphics and music, repetitive pop/rave stuff and its all very club scene, and none of it is research. Then came the 21st and revelations of the 5th dimension. Then came his commandments of Acceptance. And now his plans for a new porn channel.
And honestly, I don't know what to say. Don't want to harsh his buzz, get that it has been hard. But I also know he lies.
He doesn't talk about nearly dying and career collapsing, that person doesn't exist, changes his name, gets out of town and pop! All the past gone! And perhaps this is where the UFOs and the conjunction and the 5th dimension come in, this need to be rescued, for the brightest day to arrive and the hurt to end, for everything to be perfect and huge and magical. I understand that very well.
And anyway, if it hurts, why bring it up? He thinks I am not supporting him, and he may have a point. Here I am ticking off the things that trouble me, there has got to be a more constructive approach. I may be wrong, it would be much better if I was. He gets cross because I'm not feeling the music, not supporting his search for an ecstatic place of being. Where's that happy hedonism, that joy in the moment? Why am I so baldly unconvinced by any of it?
Is it age? Wisdom confused with cynicism? The rise of Marley's Ghost?
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Date: 2020-12-30 02:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-12-30 03:12 pm (UTC)My initial resistance is based on the way he seems to be tripping over UFOs, orbs, and lights. But if you said to me, 'What is there technically in this video that points to fakery? ' I just don't know enough about filming/photography to answer. I don't want to debunk for the sake of disbelief on principle. But... with every desire for his good, and with every readiness to consider evidence, deep in my gut I do not believe this video shows what he claims it shows. I feel terrible about that but there it is.
My friend is already all about Pleiadeans and Arcturans, etc, I really don't think he is that far from Icke though I've never heard him espouse conspiracy theories of a hateful nature. I do not know if what I am seeing is the onset of him having a breakdown, being dishonest with himself and with me, or a mixture of both.