Heavy

[smokingboot]

Bit leaden, bit slow. A friend and I are catching up for a chat today, and other friends have arranged for a lovely get-together this evening. I love their company but suddenly am aware that I have little to offer. There's a lot of generosity being shown to me and it's aggravating to feel so flat and boring, as though I can't hold up my end of the conversation, can't spark up and join in properly with everyone else. I've been awake since 7.30 and haven't even loaded the dishwasher. It feels like a stretch to do much beyond sleeping or reading The Lie Tree, (which I am enjoying immensely) bizarre to feel my body and mind this sluggish. There is one I know in similar but far more serious circumstances; respect and feeling for what is happening there, I have no right to be like this given the comparative ease of my situation.

I tell myself I'm being ridiculous, but I still haven't loaded that dishwasher.

To add to my fretfulness, I'm also annoyed because friend 1 and I have/had plans this Autumn; if not a couple of days in Ad Gefrin, at least a day out fairy hunting in Dunino Glen. Plus, there's a really simple piece of work I said I would do for the charity and I still haven't started it. I had vowed to finish it before the end of August, and I've done nothing yet.

Get up get up get up!

Comments

[summersgate]

All I can say is be kind to yourself. That's what matters.

[smokingboot]

Thank you, I will try. I'm, just not very clear on how to do it X