Alike in Dignity

[smokingboot]

Two meetings about two projects.

It almost goes without saying that thanks to the perversity of the fates, I am somehow committed to the project that leans hard on my weaknesses rather than my strengths. Yes, I would be much happier - and realistically much better - on project 2. But project 1 matters more, has more barriers as part of it, is already driving me mad...

Project 2 will be the main subject of discussion at a meeting tonight; it's going to be loads of fun. Project 1 gets discussed tomorrow night and feels like real work. Oh, but I have such a gift for creative loafing! I probably have energy/headspace for one of these. 13.30, my eyes are closing, unbelievably rough night last night. I pick the one that... hmm... needs help and may have more constructive impact for more people. Fun doesn't need help.

I hope this way of being is not permanent.

I am going to let people down tonight, but I think that matters less than letting people down tomorrow. This is all uncomfortable, but my choice feels right, which helps.

Nothing is set in stone, maybe my body will buck up by evening.

I don't think there's more than an hours work left in my bones today. Better move now!