Thirty days hath September

[smokingboot]

Thank god they are over.

To set the seal on this awful, rubbish month, I received some bad news this morning. I'm doing a kind of wappy crying thing, but I'm too tired to do it properly. Illness and money worries, people turning out to be less genuine than I thought, work being total shit and now this. I just want to close my eyes and be unconscious.

There have been really good things too and I have to remember that, babies born and wee froggies and bats and dragonflies in the garden, friends who didn't let me down, loved ones coming through illnesses and being healed, the funky new course I'm doing, and my own health, strong.

Only I don't feel very strong right now.

The time has come to be a baby myself, and cry. No I won't. No I bloody won't.

Fuck off, September. If you misbehave like this next year, I'll throw you off the calendar. Go on, be off with you!

Comments

[cyanidemigraine.livejournal.com]

dont think of the tears as weakness, tis just natural

you are a strong person, and these things too will pass.

shall send any spare energy i have, to you, for any use you may have need off.

Chris - stopping being nice before the return of the real chris is demanded

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

My dear, I thank you for this.

As for that generous offer of energy, I fear to touch lest I drain.

We both know that my 'strength' is just a form of positive stupidity!

[cyanidemigraine.livejournal.com]

stupidity is too strong a word, it robs it off its true meaning, something a lot more personalised, precious and unique.

and yet, you have admitted its positive, and i say again, a strength, even if it sometime seems doubtful

the offer i gave was freely made, and not a bargain, nor born of obligations. i said i shall offer what i have free and spare to give, and the segregation of this from what i need, is something i am more than capable of, rather than worry for me, i say, let me worry for you.

however if you worry that you shall take too much (if your need is that great) i shall craft a gift of it for you, it will take some time, and i can make no garuntee of my craftmanship of a medium i am so unfamiliar with, but when it is done, it shall be placed in the long neglected part of this not-place that i call my own, as this is yours

and i hope it helps, i go now to flex muscles long unflexed

Chris

[bytepilot.livejournal.com]

Don't knock it Darling Girl.
Your power is a positive power, and it's strong enough to ward off bullets.

Plus we love you dearly and will scold anyone who even thinks of shooting you.
I now go to eat sweet cherry pie and think sweet cherry thoughts with your wonderful self as a central figure.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

In the end it is just rain. Thank you, dear Duke, and enjoy that pie!

[falco-biarmicus.livejournal.com]

*HUG*

Ditto to everything Chris has said. Take strength from your friends - cause we all take strength from you.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

*HUGS back*

Thank you so much. You are so kind, you make me stronger.

[november-girl.livejournal.com]

If there's anything I can do, please give me a call.

[november-girl.livejournal.com]

Actually, even if I can do nothing, please feel free to give me a call.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you for this kindness, the offer alone lifts my heart. I am not very good at phone calls...don't know why...but it warms me to know that you are there.

I'm very lucky really and I know it.

[itsjustaname.livejournal.com]

It's been a bugger of a month hasn't it? There are some of us down here have been longing for October too.

Look after yourself and I wish you a very happy and peaceful October.

*hugs*

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

*Hugs back* Thank you:-) Yes, it's been a tough month for lots of people. Not exactly a season of mists and mellow fruitfulness.

October will be better.

I'm glad that months over too

[rebby.livejournal.com]

Big hug.
It was good to talk & if you ever need a shoulder I am here.
Autumn is usually my favourite time of the year lets hope it's beter from now on.

Re: I'm glad that months over too

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

You are lovely. Thanks with all my heart for that hug and the offer of a shoulder.

It was good to talk to you too; I'm glad things are better.