Messages before waking

Brr.

A voice close to my ear, clear as if awake, so clear I thought I was awake.

'He's had an accident.'

Turning to look at R, he's fine, still asleep. Wondering if maybe our old tom has been incontinent; it happens very occasionally. I haven't checked the whole house yet.

I have heard a voice like this before, but it was screaming 'HE'S DEAD' in my ears when our tom had disappeared for 5 weeks. That's just nightmare, anxiety taking a brutal form. The great thing about

Bloody hell!

Three crows just landed outside my window, one yelling its head off! I go outside, milkman's left a 6 pack of eggs. They've smashed their way into it, and had a right go at all but one. The shouting crow is a fledgling I think, the other two its hassled looking parents. Talk about turning up at a portentous moment.

No loss to us really, bit of a mess. I've rescued the one and left the rest out there for them to finish off, will hose down the path later.

I was writing about a long ago nightmare moment, when my own terrors crystallised into sound and screamed me awake. This morning just a voice, calm, clear, very distinct. Both times its a male voice. I keep track because of the fam's history of mental illness. Schizophrenia is considered to have a genetic component, something like 13 % of children and 9% of siblings to schizophrenics develop the symptoms. The voices, it seems, never have pleasant things to say. The good thing about the screaming voice is that it lied, and I dare say the voice this morning lied too. Dreams are not always friends.

The crows though, they aren't lying. They bloody love those yokes.