Brr!

[smokingboot]

Big fat flakes of snow stinging the grass, confusing the air. Do not go outside belovedest ones, stay in and keep warm, if British Gas will let you; 22%up on prices and no explanation beyond complaints about 'European suppliers'. Thank God they are not spending my cash on some massive ad campaign featuring cartoon blue-gas flames with cute regional accents explaining how BG is sooooo worth the money; cos that would get me really angry.

Moving swiftly on, I found something pretty;


I like tattoos but have never dared have one first because I am as needle phobic as they come, and second, cos I hate the idea of being branded, so to speak. I wanted a tattoo for the first time ever last year, once my melanoma was removed; had to make a big decision about taking the hard option (local anaesthetic, lots of jabs right away) or the easy one (general, 4/5 weeks away) Somehow, I took the hard option and we got the drop on the cancer quickly. But I had to face a big fear, and realise I could do it. I would like a reminder of that rite of passage, to remind me that I can do big things, not just in my head but in the real flesh of the world so to speak. But I haven't found any design to inspire me for more than a day, never mind permanently. And of course, it would mean more needles.

But then you see things like this: http://www.ringsofdesire.com/angel-poster.html

This woman, Elayne Angel, owns the first ever patented tattoo design, these black and grey wings that cover the back. And see how she had made her legs like a mermaid's tail. I don't care for that too much, but I love the way the feathers curve across her lower back; there's something so amazing about someone not only feeling magical but tracing that magic under their skin, for always. She's mermaid, she's angel, her body's aflame, no ordinary creature, part born, part self-made, her beauty unique in all the world.

If I find myself with something huge to celebrate, I would love to have the wings on my back. Not tattooed because I don't know if I can always be angel, but painted, just for a while, so I could go out to clubs and show off my back and hips with the newness of it. But of course, real angels would tell me I was missing the point.

One day maybe...

Today I am a huge red nose with magical mucus powers. This will never be the subject of a tattoo.

Comments

[caffeine-fairy.livejournal.com]

I once read an article by a woman who was covered from head to foot in tattoos.

She said that when she got her first tattoo, it was a sign to her that she'd moved in to her body. That it now belonged to her, and noone else -she made the decision for it and accepted the consequences. If she regretted the tattoo, it was _her_ regret about _her_ decision - noone else had a right to comment.

it was with her in mind I got mine done, and have never regretted it :o)

Moved into her body

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

wow, that's got me thinking...see, I have the opposite, a really strong sense of existing separately from the being I see in the mirror. Sometimes even when I've been hurt or crying I look at that person and think 'but this isn't really me,' whatever's bothering still bothers, but I am somehow apart from it, like its a front person or at least another person.

Mileage for therapy in that I'm sure!

But the ownership of one's body, the acceptance that you're in this life together one and the same, a mark to prove it...it's like a marriage. Of course, I've never been a fan of those either!

But it is a powerful and beautiful idea.

I don't think I've seen your tattoo. Is it recent?

Re: Moved into her body

[caffeine-fairy.livejournal.com]

I had it done on honeymoon :o) I have pictures, I'll send you sometime, if you like.

Re: Moved into her body

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Thank you, I would very much like that.