Hmph

[smokingboot]

The more important things become, the less I am able to talk about them.

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[lucyas.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

That is good to know. Life's a complicated bugger isn't it?

[lucyas.livejournal.com]

It seems to get more so as the years go on :)

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

See, I find it less so than it used to be. There are fewer complications, but the ones that turn up are, er, more complicated ones...

[cyanidemigraine.livejournal.com]

this seems topsy turvy to me.


maybe making a post which no one else but you can see if you really need to get stuff off your chest?

or telling someone and then killing them i suppose, but the first tactic is probably safer

;)

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Writing it down makes it at once real and not real. The moment I write it, I am crafting, distancing myself, adding artifice. I always find myself looking back over it later thinking Mmm, good phrase maybe...I'll save that for something.... Writing is the coalescence of a feeling, but it's also the beginning of said feeling's death.

Talking? I can't talk! I tried just now, a conversation with myself/imaginary other person, all it did was enhance my confusion. See, I'm like Amerika, coca cola, sometimes war. Best I stay away from all sane folk till I'm a fizzy drink again.

Guess I should talk sometime though. But I don't know how. So I'll just stick my head in a paper bag instead:-)

[jadeent.livejournal.com]

You say "Writing is the coalescence of a feeling, but it's also the beginning of said feeling's death." It's the same with ideas. They always look so perfect in my mind but lose all sparkle when written down. Which is partly why I so rarely do anything with my ideas these days.

Hang in there, sweetheart. Let those feelings roam around your mind and a solution will come to you eventually. At least that's what I do; your mileage may vary :-).

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Got to manifest ideas though, even if fully formed they are not what you imagined; unless they are mine, in which case, inchoation? inchoacity?whatever is a form of safety. My life makes more sense if I refuse to understand what I am talking about!

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

P.S. Note the ease with which I can write about not being able to write/talk about not being able to talk:-D

It's great to be me. Everyone should try it once in a lifetime...

[bytepilot.livejournal.com]

It's gigglesome and funny to be you.

But it makes it very hard to find my car keys.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

That's a safety measure. When you're me, you can't drive!

[bytepilot.livejournal.com]

(thinx)
So... When I'm you I have to stay at home, relax and drink wine ?

Or perhaps have a broad shouldered dark haired man with a strong jaw and bushy eyebrows to drive me around.

Oh the puzzles and distraction.

[catpooka.livejournal.com]

You know we would have all listened if you 'could' have talked about it! Does that help? x

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Yes it does *grins* thanks!

[squeezypaws.livejournal.com]

I hope its good important not scary bad important. Maybe its a mixture. Maybe its plain darn confusing important.

Thinking about it I end up deleting all my really important posts after I've posted them. Why? Dunno! Scared of being confronted or overwhelmed with it in wordage perhaps. But that's just me.

Maybe some things one just can't put into words.

Hope all is OK anyhoo x

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Maybe some things one just can't put into words.

That's the thing.

Nothing scary, just confusion, so much change going on! I'm OK though.

Much love XX

[nyarbaggytep.livejournal.com]

This is one of the finest paradoxes of being human.

Hope you ok.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Getting there, thanks :-) Can't avoid a few home truths but they aren't necessarily disastrous either. Onwards and upwards, wherever that is.

[november-girl.livejournal.com]

I find that alcohol both helps and hinders with such things in that it helps me to talk about the important stuff, but the talking that I do is incomprehensible bollocks. It does, however, mean that the subject is opened and translations can be made later.

Personally, I'd say if you're not sure how to say something then just preface it with "there's no easy way to say this" then blurt it out however it comes and deal with the consequences afterwards.

Alternatively, if you want to talk to me about it first then corner me at the weekend (or call me beforehand if you'd prefer).

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Some cornering (possibly accompanied by wine) is a definite possibility, thank you for offering!

Or of course, we could end up having such a good time, I just forget about everything and end up babbling drunkenly in the corner (cos I've never done that before:-))

[semyaza.livejournal.com]

It's nice to see your name popping up on my friends page, even if you don't feel able to talk about stuff. :)

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

It's good to be back. In London, I lack the time and mental energy to connect to lj, and I just never seem to stop. Now here I am for a while. It's good to hear from you again!

[mitchy.livejournal.com]

*huggles sympathetically* I'm keeping my social calander open for you to come and talk nonsense and show off tarot decks and watch silly movies :)

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

It must and shall be done! My shifts for October are not fixed yet, but as soon as I know, let's sort something.

[bytepilot.livejournal.com]

When you meet the Buddha on the road greet him neither with words nor with silence.

This of course leaves much opportunity for making all kinds of animal noises

Oncemore I shall try to tempt you with good food and gentle company.
Also (hugs)

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Yes please. In honour of buddha, let us eat vegan cake!

[bytepilot.livejournal.com]

Is that cake made of vegans ?
They Do taste better, it's true

I'll speak to you slightly closer to the real world and work out a cake eating wine drinking, talking nonsense and pointing at the stars type plan.

[smokingboot.livejournal.com]

Have received your message, will get back to you asap my dear. To spend time with you both would be lovely.

[bytepilot.livejournal.com]

Excellent,
I shall deck the halls with, well I don't know actaully, decking perhaps...