'Blaaar!' Cried Cromwell the War Toad
Jan. 23rd, 2009 01:49 pmSo here I am trying to write a horror love story, and I really do have the most beautiful idea, gorgeous and delicate. Can I write it?
My writing displeases me. It's awkward. I am trying so hard, too hard, and conversely, I have lost my discipline. I don't know how to just flow into the writing, or how to sustain the effort. No idea what's wrong with me!
This is not made easier by the news that two of my colleagues have just made a short film now shortlisted for some prestigious attention. I'm not surprised as they are both immensely talented, but I am frustrated; don't get me wrong, they worked long and hard and deserve what they're getting. I just wish I could create the pictures in my head with as much clarity and energy as they do. I envy their strength and application. It's not my imagination, I'm not doing myself down, this is not modesty or self-deprecation. I really am writing badly. Blaaar!
My writing displeases me. It's awkward. I am trying so hard, too hard, and conversely, I have lost my discipline. I don't know how to just flow into the writing, or how to sustain the effort. No idea what's wrong with me!
This is not made easier by the news that two of my colleagues have just made a short film now shortlisted for some prestigious attention. I'm not surprised as they are both immensely talented, but I am frustrated; don't get me wrong, they worked long and hard and deserve what they're getting. I just wish I could create the pictures in my head with as much clarity and energy as they do. I envy their strength and application. It's not my imagination, I'm not doing myself down, this is not modesty or self-deprecation. I really am writing badly. Blaaar!
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Date: 2009-01-24 09:24 am (UTC)Certainly in The Spiders Bride, the movement away from 1st person narrative occurs as the Bride loses her sense of self and identifies more with someone in a fairy tale, but inevitably my comfort zone is first person narrative - usually because a story comes to me as though someone was standing there telling it to me.
The story I am writing will not benefit from that. Back, back to 3rd person! My problem is that my education stops in the mid 20th century and it is tremendously limited. I must read more, I must learn.
The movie voice, oh, how I love it! But creating a screenplay is something I have never tried and I must. I've co-written comic strips before, but they don't work for me - and as there are similarities between the forms this may be a woeful indicator. If I can get my colleagues to give me a copy of their film and their screenplay, I can maybe learn something from breaking it down.
Wouldn't it be cool if we were sharing beers and having this conversation? If I ever get across to New York, let's pencil in beertalk time!
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Date: 2009-01-24 03:05 pm (UTC)The third person does have its problems for me, namely that I am bad at restraining myself and trusting the reader to get it. But the reader always does, and I overworry.
Come to nooo yoik! It's very nice.