The Last Day
Dec. 31st, 2020 08:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
smokingbootThere have been worse years than 2020 for me. Much as I enjoy being with people, I also enjoy my own company, my own resources. From that point of view the year has been no hardship. If anything, having someone in the house meant I had to readjust to others making noise... I haven't worked as hard as I should, but at least I'm getting more used to working with sound around me. Not being able to has been a real problem. I've been encouraged towards music; Mum got a phone so we could stay in contact every day. Communication has been my friend, my teacher, and my diversion.
Couple of old demons turned up but they didn't do anything much. Flashbacks and PTSD occasionally but much less, looking at the long ago and recent diagnosis/suggestion/whatever of Autism, working out how real it is or isn't, considering my stuff that's been neuroatypical all my life, giving it a place to live.
Lost one of my very best friends in the world, my aunt Senti. She was old, she didn't die from Covid, but Covid was the reason we couldn't be there to say goodbye. That was the hardest part of it all, that and my mother's frozen sorrow at losing her sister. Oh Aunty, your birthday is soon.
2020's been a teaching time for us all, I reckon, and it looks as though some of the lessons have taken, just. The year ends with jettisoning one lunatic crook and curbing the excesses of another. It shouldn't have taken us so many lost lives to understand what a government exists to do, why a health system needs supporting, why the media must be purveyors of accurate information. We need to learn from this. The trouble is that the next Trump, the next Johnson, could also learn from this. If I was training in how to become a successful dictator, analysis of these two regimes would be essential reading.
On a more profound level, there's delight in a land that isn't roaring with cars and planes, when people aren't absolutely everywhere you look. It took just a few weeks of humans not exploding in showers of food cartons and plastic for our area to change from being whatever to strikingly beautiful.
Snow is falling hard today. 2020, you didn't let humanity get away with nonsense and vanity and cruelty, you showed us what was going on, you showed us what we do to each other when we just believe what we like, when we don't take care. You cut the Earth a break. Thank you.
Time to go.
Happy New Year to all! XXX
Couple of old demons turned up but they didn't do anything much. Flashbacks and PTSD occasionally but much less, looking at the long ago and recent diagnosis/suggestion/whatever of Autism, working out how real it is or isn't, considering my stuff that's been neuroatypical all my life, giving it a place to live.
Lost one of my very best friends in the world, my aunt Senti. She was old, she didn't die from Covid, but Covid was the reason we couldn't be there to say goodbye. That was the hardest part of it all, that and my mother's frozen sorrow at losing her sister. Oh Aunty, your birthday is soon.
2020's been a teaching time for us all, I reckon, and it looks as though some of the lessons have taken, just. The year ends with jettisoning one lunatic crook and curbing the excesses of another. It shouldn't have taken us so many lost lives to understand what a government exists to do, why a health system needs supporting, why the media must be purveyors of accurate information. We need to learn from this. The trouble is that the next Trump, the next Johnson, could also learn from this. If I was training in how to become a successful dictator, analysis of these two regimes would be essential reading.
On a more profound level, there's delight in a land that isn't roaring with cars and planes, when people aren't absolutely everywhere you look. It took just a few weeks of humans not exploding in showers of food cartons and plastic for our area to change from being whatever to strikingly beautiful.
Snow is falling hard today. 2020, you didn't let humanity get away with nonsense and vanity and cruelty, you showed us what was going on, you showed us what we do to each other when we just believe what we like, when we don't take care. You cut the Earth a break. Thank you.
Time to go.
Happy New Year to all! XXX
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