smokingboot

It's worth it to see her wander around the garden in the sunshine. But I can't say I'm impressed with close to a grand and a half for no real diagnosis.

The specialist vets have given us a list of things it could be; the choice is any of three syndromes, a blood clot, a trauma or a cancer. Biopsy probably means drilling a hole into her skull to test the inflammation of tissue behind her eyes, in itself a major trauma. She's got this inflamed tissue all down one side of her face, so god knows where the actual cancer cells might be, if cancer's the problem. if If it's a blood clot, the steroids should help, just as they should with other forms of inflammation. But we're not seeing change.

She's not in pain. We try to feed her several times a day, mushing cat food up and piling it high to make it easier for her to reach, holding it in spoons or in our hands... It's messy and not particularly effective.

Last night it occurred to me that she may well be facing death very soon. This morning I am so weary I can barely keep my eyes open.

I cannot edit, cannot really do anything much. My phone is pinging away and I am too tired to look at the messages.