Solstice 2021
Dec. 22nd, 2021 09:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
smokingbootI slept through much of it.
Don't know what was wrong with me; it was a pleasant sleep, though it didn't mean I was more lucid when night came, no, I needed more sleep then, and I was hungry too, even after a good meal. It was very peculiar.
Tired, tired, no reason why. Doing is difficult. I am almost relieved that the V&C trip was cancelled, being like this at its beginning would have been a real dud. We need to get better, whatever this is.
I am worried about Mum, she got a new phone and something now seems to have gone wrong. No texts, no messages, no calls. Bro says he is not worried, that she runs out of power all the time, but I am trying to ring her twice a day, and the phone rings, rings, rings...
Bro wants her to come and live in the UK (so much for him moving to Spain!) I have told him she will not do it. Just will not. She will not get a new passport, not get on a plane or ship or train, not live in some new environment she cannot control, and considering her unvaccinated status, that's all just as well. Whatever happens next, it happens there. If he thinks that his neurodiversity can outpummel her mental illness, I'll just watch until they are both exhausted and try to fix it later.
Worrying that there is not much later to come.
People are suffering. Friends are suffering. I can't do much beyond read their thoughts, listen to them.
A friend talks about the 'decolonisation of time' at this period, and I kind of agree. The whole dispute about whether to stay home or go to work is because people cannot survive without the latter. Pausing, waiting, the standing still of the sun, not running around to someone else's orders, we need that. But those who advocate staying at home and not socialising are also failing to consider the way work has become neighbourhood for many. My brother contacted me talking about the posited party outside Downing Street. He says it looks as though half a million might be turning up, and asked if I would be joining in.
I don't think there will be half a million but eh. And no, I wont be there. It absolutely plays into the 'get them back to work whether it kills them or not' narrative. Anyone who thinks that this government prefers draconian rules and less money understands nothing of them. The most this gives them is cover for the failure of Brexit, and even that's unconvincing. My brother's gone down the rabbit hole of right wing conspiracy theories, the 'Trump was OK' business, the rise of all authoritarianism because politicians are terrified of social media, BlueQanon and the evils of BLM etc, etc, coaxed there possibly by long standing theoretical misogyny and more than that, a certain indignation about the levels of tax he has to pay. He calls it theft. He had no such names for it way back when the medicine he needed was very expensive privately, no whines about paying towards the NHS then. How folk forget!
He's not the only one; a mate of mine was complaining about the calibre of politicians we currently had, but I remember when she held back at the Brexit referendum, and indeed, told me not to speak about it to her. I warned her, and other Lexiters, that a Leave result would herald the rise of the right in this country, and while I wish I hadn't been right - and am quite sincere in that wish - I have no shame in saying 'I told you so.' It was our job to vote away from the bad guys, the incompetents, our job to just now and then know what we were talking about, guard the door, learn. Too many people who think that politics is some boring sh*t that someone else will take care of. Well, this is what happens when politics is taken care of by 'someone else' whoever that may be. Don't choose then it's chosen for you. But saying this to people right now is very hard on them.
Liz Truss, of all people, is now dealing with N.I and Brexit, busy trying to out-Statham Lord Frost saying she'll suspend the protocol. Liz Truss is without doubt one of the most obvious combinations of idiocy and ambition ever to have entered politics. She is where she is because Johnson will give her every chance to fail, even if (especially if) if it means a resumption of hostilities that can be laid at her door. He wants her damaged as a rival. And if there is one man who could ignore the casualties that might ensue, it is the current UK PM.
Ugh. And there then, are the bare bones of our longest night this year, a special one, brought upon us by the choices people make and then lament over with each other.
I'm going to wait for a little light.
Don't know what was wrong with me; it was a pleasant sleep, though it didn't mean I was more lucid when night came, no, I needed more sleep then, and I was hungry too, even after a good meal. It was very peculiar.
Tired, tired, no reason why. Doing is difficult. I am almost relieved that the V&C trip was cancelled, being like this at its beginning would have been a real dud. We need to get better, whatever this is.
I am worried about Mum, she got a new phone and something now seems to have gone wrong. No texts, no messages, no calls. Bro says he is not worried, that she runs out of power all the time, but I am trying to ring her twice a day, and the phone rings, rings, rings...
Bro wants her to come and live in the UK (so much for him moving to Spain!) I have told him she will not do it. Just will not. She will not get a new passport, not get on a plane or ship or train, not live in some new environment she cannot control, and considering her unvaccinated status, that's all just as well. Whatever happens next, it happens there. If he thinks that his neurodiversity can outpummel her mental illness, I'll just watch until they are both exhausted and try to fix it later.
Worrying that there is not much later to come.
People are suffering. Friends are suffering. I can't do much beyond read their thoughts, listen to them.
A friend talks about the 'decolonisation of time' at this period, and I kind of agree. The whole dispute about whether to stay home or go to work is because people cannot survive without the latter. Pausing, waiting, the standing still of the sun, not running around to someone else's orders, we need that. But those who advocate staying at home and not socialising are also failing to consider the way work has become neighbourhood for many. My brother contacted me talking about the posited party outside Downing Street. He says it looks as though half a million might be turning up, and asked if I would be joining in.
I don't think there will be half a million but eh. And no, I wont be there. It absolutely plays into the 'get them back to work whether it kills them or not' narrative. Anyone who thinks that this government prefers draconian rules and less money understands nothing of them. The most this gives them is cover for the failure of Brexit, and even that's unconvincing. My brother's gone down the rabbit hole of right wing conspiracy theories, the 'Trump was OK' business, the rise of all authoritarianism because politicians are terrified of social media, BlueQanon and the evils of BLM etc, etc, coaxed there possibly by long standing theoretical misogyny and more than that, a certain indignation about the levels of tax he has to pay. He calls it theft. He had no such names for it way back when the medicine he needed was very expensive privately, no whines about paying towards the NHS then. How folk forget!
He's not the only one; a mate of mine was complaining about the calibre of politicians we currently had, but I remember when she held back at the Brexit referendum, and indeed, told me not to speak about it to her. I warned her, and other Lexiters, that a Leave result would herald the rise of the right in this country, and while I wish I hadn't been right - and am quite sincere in that wish - I have no shame in saying 'I told you so.' It was our job to vote away from the bad guys, the incompetents, our job to just now and then know what we were talking about, guard the door, learn. Too many people who think that politics is some boring sh*t that someone else will take care of. Well, this is what happens when politics is taken care of by 'someone else' whoever that may be. Don't choose then it's chosen for you. But saying this to people right now is very hard on them.
Liz Truss, of all people, is now dealing with N.I and Brexit, busy trying to out-Statham Lord Frost saying she'll suspend the protocol. Liz Truss is without doubt one of the most obvious combinations of idiocy and ambition ever to have entered politics. She is where she is because Johnson will give her every chance to fail, even if (especially if) if it means a resumption of hostilities that can be laid at her door. He wants her damaged as a rival. And if there is one man who could ignore the casualties that might ensue, it is the current UK PM.
Ugh. And there then, are the bare bones of our longest night this year, a special one, brought upon us by the choices people make and then lament over with each other.
I'm going to wait for a little light.
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Date: 2021-12-22 05:42 pm (UTC)But I'm absolutely in love with the "decolonisation of time". May I borrow it?
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Date: 2021-12-23 09:40 am (UTC)