
I need to replace it with a fresh one!
I have been working hard, and this morning I had to face a financial setback. Enough already, I insist that things get easier!
OOBM, I know you skim this LJ from time to time. Let me tell you, the chart I'm doing is probably going to take the rest of my life. It's draining and time-expensive! No, I don't mind doing it, but combining this and work and everything else is too much. Yes, I am very tired.
It is a bad sign when not one scrap of poetry sparks up my mind.
I have an idea for a roleplaying scenario. I'm always doing this, I play out the ideas in my head and never take them further because it all smacks of yet more effort. I tell myself to keep my creativity for professional life, so I horde my ideas and some make it on to paper and some don't, and some are put on the back burner for no better reason than that I am too busy, too tired, can't be bothered or detest learning new systems. I am surrounded by very good RP refs too, which can be a bit daunting.
But I want to change a pattern somewhere, and really do it too, as opposed to my own compunction to just talk my ideas off into the ether. This is one rich and easy way of flicking a switch in my brain, trivial but engrossing. But is it too stressful?
Hmm.