Someone scrape me off the floor
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smokingbootWell, the last 24 hours have been fine.
Likes to Help came round last night. It was great to see him, I only wish things weren't so tough for him right now. Things happen but as this isn't his LJ, I can't say much. All chums can do is listen and be around.
Today we spent lunch with Laughs Like Gravel and Sensible But Spiritual. LLG and BB worked on BB's cv, SBS and I talked about spiritual stuff, and played with the neighbourhood floozie cat, a grande dame among felines, called Millie-cat by her humans, and Manky Cat by LLG. In fact, she informed me in most lofty mog patois (called 'Mao' among the cognoscenti) that her current name is Lizzbuff, only to be changed whenever she feels like it.
Lovely and chilled though the afternoon was, tonight blew me away. Sweetest Smile, Beloved Bear and I had to play Amber Eye's Vampire this evening, having been left on a cliffhanger so astonishing, that waiting 5 days for it's resolution was unthinkable. The result?
My character has been put through an emotional mangler. She's a wreck, and I'm loving it. I thought she had angst before. How little I knew! I cried my eyes out, genuine tears of despair. I'm astonished at myself and at the game for bringing this out of me.
The amazing thing is that none of it comes across as contrived or forced. Every ref manipulates, it's part of the skill. The key is the delicacy of the push, so subtle and clever and creative. This may be my favourite session of any vampire game I have played, ever, and I have played some truly fantastic games.
We're not playing next week, which is just as well. I could use a few days to chew over every forlorn moment of last night. I have loads to do tomorrow, so I must get the froth out of my system. I have no idea how to do it. It's at times like this I wish we had a gym in the attic.
Likes to Help came round last night. It was great to see him, I only wish things weren't so tough for him right now. Things happen but as this isn't his LJ, I can't say much. All chums can do is listen and be around.
Today we spent lunch with Laughs Like Gravel and Sensible But Spiritual. LLG and BB worked on BB's cv, SBS and I talked about spiritual stuff, and played with the neighbourhood floozie cat, a grande dame among felines, called Millie-cat by her humans, and Manky Cat by LLG. In fact, she informed me in most lofty mog patois (called 'Mao' among the cognoscenti) that her current name is Lizzbuff, only to be changed whenever she feels like it.
Lovely and chilled though the afternoon was, tonight blew me away. Sweetest Smile, Beloved Bear and I had to play Amber Eye's Vampire this evening, having been left on a cliffhanger so astonishing, that waiting 5 days for it's resolution was unthinkable. The result?
My character has been put through an emotional mangler. She's a wreck, and I'm loving it. I thought she had angst before. How little I knew! I cried my eyes out, genuine tears of despair. I'm astonished at myself and at the game for bringing this out of me.
The amazing thing is that none of it comes across as contrived or forced. Every ref manipulates, it's part of the skill. The key is the delicacy of the push, so subtle and clever and creative. This may be my favourite session of any vampire game I have played, ever, and I have played some truly fantastic games.
We're not playing next week, which is just as well. I could use a few days to chew over every forlorn moment of last night. I have loads to do tomorrow, so I must get the froth out of my system. I have no idea how to do it. It's at times like this I wish we had a gym in the attic.
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