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[smokingboot]

Not so easy a time, a little bit let down by an admin cock up, a lot let down by a weak and silly person. But I have become better at discardia.

Work is hard for a daft reason.

I have real problems working in noise. If I am trying to write, seriously write, I can't bear much sound around me at all. Right now my hombre is at home playing some game I bought him, and the noise, little though it is, drives me nuts. I am hopeless with it. Music is odd for me, I could listen to it before or after work and it might inspire me, but during the process it's a complete no-no.

And if I like a song, or a series of notes in a song, I can play it again and again and again...Turns out it's a form of stimming, accompanied by certain behaviours that used to baffle people when I was a child. I've done it forever, no harm in it, but work it ain't, nor is it constructive.

Noise = friends and mucking around. Silence = work and going into my headland. And right now, the house isn't silent.

So I have to learn how to deal with that.

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[mallorys_camera]

Wow! I am exactly the same way when it comes to noise and work (writing.)

I cannot listen to music when I write. Can. Not. Because I start trying to identify individual notes, and instruments, and wondering whether other people have the same emotional reaction to this sequence of notes that I do, and ...

But I do often listen short sequences of notes if they carry an emotional resonance that I need for what I'm writing.

I've met people who can only write in silence before. But I don't think I've ever known anyone who did that short note sequence thing.

[smokingboot]

But I do often listen short sequences of notes if they carry an emotional resonance that I need for what I'm writing.

That is exactly how it works for me. I thought I was the only one, nice to meet you fellow... do we need a name for whatever this is?